Hello again, I thought I’d give some updates on everything going on. So lately, I’ve been in somewhat of a funk with everything going on in my life between hard exams, news about my friend that passed away, and my relationships with other people. Life has kind of been beating me down lately when I’m trying to keep on top of all of it. On the other end of all of this mess (and with the help of crying and talking to my boyfriend) I’ve done had some revelations that come down to the fact that I really need to take care of myself and grow up.
Self-care is something of a long term project for me that I’ve gotten better at through the years, but I’m not all there yet. I have a hard time sharing the things that trouble me with other people because I’m afraid of making them worry about me when I feel that I can handle it. But bottling things up hasn’t been working and has been damaging how I interact with other people.
I also need to get into the habit of saying how I feel if I’m upset and letting it go if I don’t speak up about it, expecting other people to just “get it” without me explaining myself. Working on yourself can be difficult and hearing criticism about yourself can be difficult to take in, but I’m trying to do it as gracefully as I can.
So that’s what I’m working on in these upcoming months but I’m feeling positive that I can make these changes happen. Other than that, I’m happy to say I’ll be traveling to Chicago this Memorial Day weekend to visit a good friend of mine who moved there for school. I’m super excited to go back and actually be a tourist. I’ve started prepping a list of things I want to do and see while I’m there as a reward for finishing up my first year of grad school. Now, I’m off to study for yet another exam…