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Life is getting real

So a while ago I received a long awaited email stating that I was accepted into the graduate program I had been applying and testing for since December. I was ecstatic of course to get the news, I called my mom and dad from work, sent texts to my best friends and my boyfriend all of who were happy for me. At first I felt nervous that the idea of it. Doing more school and adding more debt to my name and I was doubting myself at first that I’d be good at it or that I would like it. But when I talked out my fears to my boyfriend, he reassured me that this school wanted me and that I was smart enough to do it, and there was nothing to be afraid of. He was right, I often cloud my confidence with a lot of self doubt and can fail to see the potential in myself and realize how much I’ve accomplished in my life. Regardless, I’ve paid my deposit, am sorting out the paperwork, and have as of today, registered for my first semester at Eastern Virginia Medical School. I’ll be perusing a master’s degree in biomedical research and I’m excited to see what the next phase of my life will be. Things will be so much different from the way they were during undergrad. I’ll be having to commute, I won’t be able to work, I can’t just walk to class unless I stay at Daniel’s the night before. Adulthood is easily creeping up on me but like everyone before me, I’m just taking it as it comes.

I’m trying not to do the whole comparison thing with my friends. I know how lucky I am to be getting in to this program but I can’t help but want the other things like a newer car or a place to live on my own. I am lucky to be able to stay home with my parents and that my sister had a car for me to use this summer and when I go off to school. One day I’ll be exactly where I want to be. Daniel lives very close to EVMS and I can stay and study with him when I want and walk to class.

I’ll get through this and I’m glad to have the support system that I have! Many of my friends are excited for me and my siblings are very proud of me. My boyfriend is ready to do this journey with me and I’m ready to navigate grad school life with him by my side. So those are just the thoughts I’m having about my next part of life. Currently just trying to make it through the work week to the weekend again and then some birthday fun next week!

 

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    Dara
    June 24, 2015 at 5:46 am

    This is huge! Congratulations, love! And remember that you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. It’s amazing that you have that awesome support system. Can’t wait to read as this next chapter of your life unfolds.

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